Pike slowly reigns himself in and drops down into a nearby chair, dropping his head into his hands.

"I don't know if I'm making the right decision here," he whispers finally. "I'm not making it with my head... I'm doing all this on emotion... and that's not what a Master does... at least not one that's a fucking Admiral for the Empire..." He slowly shook his head, trying to force the tears back. "I'm seriously thinking about retirement, James," he forces out softly.