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You are NOT my father [Locked to adm_chris_pike]

He'd managed to lose his older self, which in turn lost the Admiral. There was no way he was going to let those two ruin his fun. So he heads out and gets drunk off his ass and while drunk he ends up getting a nice lovely tattoo along the center of his back. It should've hurt, but it didn't. Though that was probably because he was drunk off his ass and wasn't really thinking straight. Not like he actually had a brand to say he was an owned man. Teen... whatever...

But after getting the tattoo, he just heads out with the intent to have a bit more fun.

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Pike hears those words and he shuts his eyes tightly. For the sake of both his boys, he finally pushes himself to his feet and turns off the water. Grabbing a towel, he roughly and quickly dries off his face and eyes, wrapping the towel around his waist before opening the door to see them both sitting right there. He bends down and picks up the younger boy in his arms, moving them all back to the bed, pulling James between himself and Jim, letting the boy lay however he wished.

"Don't," he whispered softly into the boy's hair. "Please don't. I can't handle hearing either of you apologize to me right now. It's fine. I am fine. Everything will be okay. I'm just... I'm tired and it's effecting everything right now. Please, both of you... I'm fine. It's okay. You need to know you can say whatever you need to say without fear of my getting angry or upset and still be able to be strong for you both..."

Jim gives his Master an apologetic look and rubs his younger self's back as they slip back into the bed. "I think this is all overwhelming for him, sir. He's not used to having someone give a damn about him." He's pretty damn sure that's what it is for James.

James isn't paying attention to what his older self is saying, he just curls up and clings to Pike like the guy was the very breath he breathed. A part of him wanted the damn universe to swallow him whole, to make it all go away and make it all make sense. None of it did though. "But I..." He'd hurt Pike by saying that, he shouldn't of.

Pike sighs softly and just holds the boy tightly, fingers trailing through the dark blond locks gently.

"No, Jim, that's not what it is," he said quietly. "The two of you, earlier, talking about Frank... it threw me. I don't think I ever realized that you.. or him.. would see me in that light; that I was no better than Frank because I hit you, only I didn't do it for no reason. But it's still the same, isn't it? I still hurt you..."

Jim frowns at that, "I never said you were no better then Frank, sir. I told him that you WERE better then Frank because you showed us that you actually gave a damn about us when he didn't. I never said you were no better then him."

James just curls up more, clinging to Pike that much more tightly.

"No, it isn't the same, sir. You don't hit us. You discipline us, that's different. He beat us. You don't do that. You give us guidance and love."

Pike looks at his own boy intently, even as he pulls James against his chest, letting the boy cling to him for now.

"You didn't think so at the beginning though," he said softly. "You ran from me more than once... I do remember that... I just don't want to make the same mistakes again..."

"Stop thinking you will, sir." Jim states softly, moving to lay closer to the two of them, though makes a face at the tattoo. Though it was a good likeness of the Enterprise. He reaches over and trails fingers lightly over it. "You won't make them, I won't let you."

James eventually cries himself out and he's so... exhausted, but still... "I was wrong." He whispers pressing closer to Pike.

"And you are forgiven, little one," Pike whispers softly, kissing James on the forehead once more. "But I want you to know, you can say anything that needs to be said without fear of my hurting you for it. I'll never hurt you for being honest with me, James. Remember that."

"Okay..." He whispers, still clinging to Pike. "I wasn't right though. I should've never said what I did." James whispers, those eyes closing a bit.

Pike knows nothing he says will make the boy believe him tonight so he continues to just run his fingers through the boy's hair, leaving Jim to rub the boy's back until James is asleep. After a few minutes of silence, Pike meets his own boy's gaze with his own.

"I love you," he whispers softly.

Once James is asleep, he gives his Master a small smile. "I love you too, sir." Though his eyes go back to his younger self. "You realize that if he belongs to you, we'll have to make it official."

Pike nods slowly, still watching Jim carefully.

"How do you feel about that?" he asks softly. "I won't do anything that upsets you..."

"I don't mind it, sir. I care about him too and he'd have a wonderful man for a Master. Everyone deserves that."

"All right then," Pike says quietly. "We'll talk it over with him in the morning and if he agrees as well, I'll get him a collar and everything else as well." He yawns softly and closes his eyes. "Get some sleep, Jim. I have a feeling life just got more interesting for us both..."

"And he'll need to remove the Enterprise from his back." He murmurs giving a yawn of his own, letting his own eyes close. He wraps around his younger self and makes sure he's touching his Master in some way before letting sleep take him.

Pike chuckles softly at that but knows his boy is right. The tattoo has to go. He slips into sleep, James plastered to his chest and Jim's hand resting on his abdomen.

Come morning James squirms a bit, being trapped between two strong men. Sheesh. But he wants to get cleaned up and it takes a bit, but he manages to get away from the two and into the bathroom to take a nice relaxing, hot shower.

Pike wakes once he hears the water and glances at Jim, finding his boy still sound asleep which means that James is in the shower. He slips out of bed and pulls on a pair of sweat pants before stepping inside the bathroom and settling himself on the counter.

"You feeling okay this morning?"

That has James nearly jumping out of his skin when he hears Pike. "Yeah, I'm feeling okay this morning. Thank you, sir."

"You sure?" Pike asks quietly. "I know yesterday was kind of an emotional overload for you. You slept pretty hard most of the night..."

"I feel fine." He says softly. "It's going to take a bit to get used to though. But being with you and Jim, it helps."

Pike continued sitting on the counter top, not wanting to push anything with the younger boy.

"You okay with me being in here or should I leave? I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable..."

"I'm okay as long as you're out there and not in here with me."

So as long as Pike wasn't in the shower with him, he was fine. Otherwise the Admiral was good right where he was at.

Pike laughed then and shook his head.

"First, you are below the legal age of consent so trust me when I say I plan on staying out here. Secondly, I'm not so sure that's something you and I will end up with between us. Not that I'm telling you no outright, but... we just have to see... You may find someone else on board that you're interested in. Just... ask first, all right?"

That gets a small smile out of James, though he's kind of staying in the shower longer then usual. It felt good. But when he is done, he grabs a towel and dries off, then steps out wrapping the towel around himself.

"Because the other person might be owned by someone else and you don't want me to get hurt?"

Pike smiles and ruffles the boy's hair.

"Right... and I have a tendency to be a jealous master." He gives the boy a wink and slides off the counter. "I'll be outside." He presses a chaste kiss to the top of the boy's head and steps outside to see his own Jim watching him.

"Sleep okay?" he asks, crawling back into bed.

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