"What the hell did you...?!" [For adm_chris_pike]

[iamnotmyfather]

There had been a few rumors that Jim had heard and he wanted to think they were just that, rumors. So he headed down to the rec room where his boy said he'd be and stood in the doorway, eyes scanning the room until he came across him. What the hell was this? It had better not be what he thought it was. If it was there was going to be a shit ton of problems. Ones that neither man would want to deal with.

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[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"What are you going to do, Jim?" Bones asks quietly. "Cause you've only got tonight to decide and sitting here with me ain't gonna help..."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

"I don't know..." He says with a frown. "Something." He tells him before heading back to his quarters.

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Chris has gotten everything cleaned, packed, dinner ready to be served and now just stands by the large living area window, staring out at the stars.

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim's not really all that hungry, he's lost and hurting... he's far too damn confused. Moving over, he grabs Chris and whirls him around kissing him good and hard, pouring all of his feelings into that kiss. He doesn't know if it's the right thing to do but still...

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Chris is too shocked to react at first but a moment later, he's returning that kiss just as fiercely, arms coming up to wrap around his Master's body, holding him tightly. He pulls back from the kiss, pressing his forhead to Jim's, letting the tears he's been holding back finally fall.

"I'm sorry... I'm so fucking sorry... please don't send me away... I don't want to be alone again..."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim reaches up to wipe away those tears, trying not to let his own fall. "I won't send you away. You have to bear with me though, Chris. I don't know what I'm doing... I am so lost on the whole love thing and not real sure on if I'm going to be good at showing it. So bear with me, please."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Christopher nods slowly and leans in to kiss Jim again just as fiercely as before. He can't lose this... not the place he has in this man's life or the man himself.

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim kisses him back, giving a low groan into that kiss. "I do believe that throat of yours is missing something too, baby." He thinks about it a moment. "You asked why I thought you were flirting, you didn't see it from my standpoint. You and the ensign were leaning too far into each other and I got jealous. I'm sorry I hit you, because you're right I never have hurt you aside from punishing you."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"When you said you'd give me my freedom... after you left, I took it off... it's on your dresser..." He pulls away just long enough to retrieve the collar, handing it to his Master. "I didn't see it that way and I apologize for hurting you. But you hitting me... I provoked you and I shouldn't have done so..."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim takes the collar and slips it back onto Chris' throat. "What do you really want, Chris?"

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Chris waits until that collar is back in place before he meets Jim's gaze with his own.

"I just want you, Master," he whispers softly. "I just want you to love me... and let me love you back. To hell with perfection or whatever. And I want to know that you won't get angry with me if I say I can't handle you going off ship. I need to know I can be honest with you without worrying that you're going to punish me for it."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim listens to him and gives a small nod to that.

"I'm not going to let you dictate what I do though, Chris. No one can dictate that, but me. Yes, there's missions out there that are dangerous. There's some that I'll need to go on and I might be gone for a while. But I need to know that you won't cause trouble just for the sake of causing trouble. I love you, Chris. I'm trying to keep us both happy. I'm not sure how good I'll be at doing that though."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"Okay," he says quietly. "I can live with that then. I just know that I can't live without you so if you don't ever come back from one of those damn missions? I'm gonna hunt your ass down just so you know. I won't just sit back and let someone tell me you're missing. Can we agree on that at least?"

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

"I don't want you ever coming after me. Not unless Spock is with you, I don't want you hurt."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"Fine, fine. The hobgoblin can come with me. But I won't stop until I have you back, Master. You're mine..." He leaned in, holding James tightly once more and pressing his face into the side of his Master's neck.

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

"Watch what you call Spock." He chuckles and just holds his boy to him. "I love you, Chris. You're mine and no one is going to ever hurt you again."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

He relaxed into his Master's hold even more at those words.

"I love you too, Master..."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

"No more leaning into people either. Though next time I'll ask rather then assuming, once I get past the jealousy."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Chris pulled back and looked up at James with a smirk on his face.

"So... no leaning in to you either?" he asked with a wink before turning serious. "I'll try to make sure it doesn't happen again."

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

"I, my boy..." He says grabbing Chris and pulling him as close as possible. "Am a different story."

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"But of course you are," Chris grins, loving this possessive side of his Master... when, of course, it wasn't being brandished in anger.

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Leaning down, he kisses him good and hard while pressing his hands against Chris' ass.

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

Chris gives a husky moan into that kiss, pressing in even closer to his Master, rubbing against him, hands sliding up and down Jim's sides and back.

[iamnotmyfather.livejournal.com]

Jim kisses him harder. "Dinner can wait." He groans out.

[adm-chris-pike.livejournal.com]

"I won't argue that," Christopher whispers, pressing back against the window sill and pulling his Master closer, one hand already working to unfasten the pants Jim has on.